I've never let anyone read what I've written before so here goes nothing...
(I get bored during class and just write…so here is some stuff I randomly wrote)
at this very moment I know that I should move on…moving on from the past…a past which created/made you who you are today is impossible. I wish it was as easy as everyone says. There are people brought into your life for a reason…whether it be good or bad its just another lesson to learn. You might need to go through a lot of people who do you wrong, treat you unfairly, and just are plain disrespectful. But I feel like going through all of them lead me to you. That one person who understands. It was well worth it. I was so close to the edge but you kept me from falling.
All those hands that I held onto that slipped from my grasp were just there temporarily. waiting till your hand fit perfectly into mine. now that its there, I’m not letting go…allowing something so great to pass me by and leave like I allowed everything else. cause this is something worth fighting for.
This was extremely hard but it of course it would be a Fall Out Boy song. It was either this or The (shipped) Gold Standard, Lake Effect Kid or Reinventing The Wheel To Run Myself Over.
The reason the song means so much to me personally though is because it reminds me of (sounds cliche) but a simpler time. I use to drive around with my best friend and blast this song! -"The World’s Not Waiting (For Five Tired Boys And A Broken Down Van)"
Okay last time changing my favorite song…haha
The reason I changed the song to “Growing Up” by Fall Out Boy is because its the first song they wrote as a band. And this band has impacted my life tremendously!
So I was about to withdraw from school. Talked to someone and realized it wasn’t in my best interest to do so. So I am sticking it out..not like I want to but ya know what…in life you have to do things you don’t want to do. Also I got stuff in the mail today that made me smile. I have the best friends in the world. Seriously, without them I’d be lost. I love them so much! <3
Bobby Mares from My Genuine Find is such an amazing person! I hope he knows all he’s done for me personally. Not only is he such an amazing musician with a postive message to share but he’s so loyal to his fans. If it weren’t for him I would have never met such amazing people that I am lucky to call my friends. Without Bobby, Frankus and Ryan I wouldn’t have met these people…
^Stef, Krystal, Charlene, myself, V, Jen and Kelly. People Who I love dearly and without whom I’d be lost without. <3
<—- Stef and I
^ Char, Me and Henifer!
<—So many Pauls!
^ Bobby, Kelly, and Myself!
^ Ryan with his pickle…Pinch your pickle? <3 Kiko, Nina, Myself and V!
<—-Love these crazy NM boys!
I love these boys so much! <3 Frank and Diego <3
Saved the best for last haha, just because it makes me laughing thinking about it.
^ Defiantly my favorite picture! Ryan sitting the typical ”Ryan Way.” (Stickam Style haha) I think this was from our sleepover week! aww Ryan, Stef and I= a week of sleepovers.
Krystal- I love you so much. You truely care about me and you have no idea how much that means. I know I can always count on you for anything anytime.
Diego- Darling Diego, you understand my crazyiness! Well we are both crazy and we both get eachother. Between the whole Fall Out Boy “hiatus” haha most people think I’m crazy for being really sad. Not you! I don’t know what I’d do without you. Thank goodness I met you!
Ryan- Oh Ryan. I love you…you tickle my taco. haha But really thanks for being there to listen to me and give me such great advice. It’s been awhile since someone has actually given advice that is the truth and doesn’t bullshit around the truth. You know what I’m taking about. Thanks Love <3
Frank- I love you ya perv! What else can I say? Besides that you’re an amazing person, don’t forget that.
Stef-Love You Even If You Type All Crazy…kidding. But I really love you and thanks for cheering me up when I’m down.
Heinfer- Where to start, Jewjipple? Haha I know you make fun of me all the time but I love it and you. It’s what makes our relationship so great. I make fun of you and in return you make fun of me. But it is all out of love. <3
Dustin- Between all the jew jokes… I love ya! Can’t wait for the wedding. Cause according to you I can bring Aaron cause, “He’s hot so its okay.” Keeping making your music. I mean you’re Dustin! (Dust in the Wind!!! YOU’RE FAMOUS)
Charlene-Ahh I love you and your laugh! No joke as much as I make fun of you…for being short or anything else, its out of love.
Veronique- My Canadian love! Or RonRon (as Jen calls you) or V… And you’ve given me some great nicknames…aka Mellon! haha
Kelly- My little Llama/Justin Bieber lover. hehe Kidding. You always put a smile on my face between you sitting in the dark with your sunglasses or running from a scary noise. Or my personal favorite, you talking to your ceiling! <3
Brittany- You’re hilarious! (like you falling off your chair or telling everyone to friend your dad on facebook hahaha) Love you <3
Kiko- Love you dear! *Mwah*
Bobby- You’ve called me melroy, mel gibson, meltois, melchard, melagro, melliso, meltard, melton, melting, melsucks, melsanidiot, and i hate mel. But no matter what you call me I know you love me haha! But seriously, I hope you know that you’ve brought so many people together.
Thank you all for always being there for me, no matter what.
So basically I know I shouldn’t be selfish but at the same time it seems like my only escape is being taken away from me. I need to respect peoples decisions. I know they’ve always repected mine. Love you all