In January it marks on year since I’ve self harmed myself. I got this tattoo done for myself regardless of many people telling me it was a bad idea. But the truth is, I’m proud of myself and even though I got it a few hours ago, I can’t help but smile when I look at it. It also feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My family finally knows and I know how lucky I am to have such amazing friends that have helped me through the pasted few years.
Feeling extremely torn. Being a preschool teacher since I was 15… The past 8 years, damn… It’s all I know. That would be great if that’s what I wanted to do in the long run. But the truth is its not what I want. The preschool I’m currently at told me if I was looking for a full time position, they had one. And I also have had 3 interviews with a direct marketing company, and was offered a Job.
What makes the most sense is to take the marketing/promotion job. Considering I want to do promotion and marketing (in the music industry) long term. So it’s some experience if anything. But I’m basically closing this huge chapter in my life and starting over.
It’s frightening. And makes me question everything!
The fact that I’ve only slept maybe 10 hours the past three nights can’t be good.
This picture was taken at a graduation party in Long Grove, IL. Where Fall Out Boy performed. Years later I was going through some pictures and found it. I immediately called my older sister who was there. (My sister graduated High School in 2003 and She invited me but sadly I couldn’t attend) I called her and sent her this picture because of the guy in the back. The guy in the background was her roommate at the time and a close friend. A lot of people love this picture of Patrick and say the guy, Brian, ruined the photo. To this day this picture makes me smile.
First time going to Spanish since the 13th of this month. I hope my teacher doesn’t want my documentation for my absences…